Losing minutes and realizing that you've really hurt somebody has got to be fucking terrifying. I don't really have anything else to say about that, since I have no personal experience with it. But I've noticed that it tends to be a theme with my fics that a character will be repressing a very pronounced bestial side. I know that sometimes I get characters' voices so accurate because I can see a lot of myself in them at certain moments, like Mac in just about every way, or Danny's jumpy-sympathetic side, or Flack being wry yet levelheaded, or Michael because of the way I can blend in with different crowds of people just by thinking a certain way (and I love his inner monologue like whoa and sometimes I get the same thing going within myself, or Victor because... well, why not? Sometimes you need a crazy side. But the repressing a beast-side, it's like I've got some sympathy for that, almost like I know how it feels even though mine must be locked up pretty tight. I like characters with pronounced beast-sides. I understand them. It's almost as though I feel like they're kindred spirits.
I also realized the other day that I've put a history of being the victim of a nasty sex crime in the past of at least two different characters, in two different stories; mine was not nearly so dramatic as these, but I still have a bonafide panic attack every time I see somebody who looks like The Bastard Ex-Boyfriend. One character/story you're aware of (vamp!Mac), and the other I think I'll be sending you fairly soon even though I'll need to put in more Cliff's Notes (which, by the way, reminds me: 1, another reason for you to like Eliot so much, and 2, what'd you think of that BN/Leverage thing I sent you the other day?). But for the second, I'm hoping you started watching In Plain Sight after I kept pimping it during the CSI:NY review days.
Is she calming down yet, or is she still cranky? Just curious.
Hm. Just thought of this, as I was about to hit the Post button: Maybe that's a reason you like werewolves so much? They feel like kindred spirits of a sort?
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Date: Sep. 12th, 2010 08:22 am (UTC)I also realized the other day that I've put a history of being the victim of a nasty sex crime in the past of at least two different characters, in two different stories; mine was not nearly so dramatic as these, but I still have a bonafide panic attack every time I see somebody who looks like The Bastard Ex-Boyfriend. One character/story you're aware of (vamp!Mac), and the other I think I'll be sending you fairly soon even though I'll need to put in more Cliff's Notes (which, by the way, reminds me: 1, another reason for you to like Eliot so much, and 2, what'd you think of that BN/Leverage thing I sent you the other day?). But for the second, I'm hoping you started watching In Plain Sight after I kept pimping it during the CSI:NY review days.
Is she calming down yet, or is she still cranky? Just curious.
Hm. Just thought of this, as I was about to hit the Post button: Maybe that's a reason you like werewolves so much? They feel like kindred spirits of a sort?