That's pretty much what I've been doing. I just, I had my sights set on majoring in chem, and going and working for like, the SBI or CCBI(City-County Bureau of Identification) and suddenly, just getting through college seems like an enormous burden. And all of a sudden I'm thinking, "Well, what if I just went into the police force?" And part of me is worried about what my mom will think about that, but part of me is like, I don't give a shit about that. I don't fit, and that's killing who I AM! Because no one here actually knows me like my friends back home.
And I plan on going to the counselor's office tomorrow, and saying, "Hey, who can spare an hour or two to listen to me spill my guts about being mildly depressed and slightly suicidal?"
Yeah, that was a lot of my problem through HS. I would turn in work late, or leave it to the last minute, because I could churn it out in very little time. But I had a lot of good teachers, and my Band Director would have killed me if I dropped out.
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Date: Dec. 4th, 2009 09:19 am (UTC)And I plan on going to the counselor's office tomorrow, and saying, "Hey, who can spare an hour or two to listen to me spill my guts about being mildly depressed and slightly suicidal?"
Yeah, that was a lot of my problem through HS. I would turn in work late, or leave it to the last minute, because I could churn it out in very little time. But I had a lot of good teachers, and my Band Director would have killed me if I dropped out.