Still feeling off, but with a little more direction and purpose

[whogeek]

So.... I did it. I told my mom about wanting to drop out, and she and my dad are coming up to get me, so we can discuss things, and get everything settled. And it was surprisingly easy to come clean to her about everything. She didn't yell or anything, but she still wants me to try and stay in college, and after last night, I feel better. I still feel lost and confused, but now, I know what I have to do.... I have to find myself. And if that means I have to leave college, I'll do it. Because depression is not a place I like being. Oh, yeah. I went to the school counselor, and I'm definitely showing all the signs and symptoms of depression. Whoop-de-frikkin-doo. So now, I don't have just ADD, I've got depression too. If I feel ready to go back to college after, I will, but if I don't, I'll just head off into the world for myself. The thought hurts, but it's what I've got to do for myself.

Edit: I'm about this close to going and finding the fucking idiots somewhere in my dorm building who are blasting the bass, because it's giving me a headache, and making my TEETH ache.

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[whogeek.livejournal.com]

I just hope I can convince my parents of that. Because my mom does still want me to continue, when I don't think that it's the right path for me.

[brilligspoons.livejournal.com]

Strike a compromise - say you want to try just having a job, or whatever, for a semester or two, at which point you'll reevaluate staying out of college or going back. You could even take a course or two at a community college (maybe something that interests you in a fun way) to keep your mom happy!

Just making some suggestions - feel free to ignore me if I'm overstepping my bounds. :)

[whogeek.livejournal.com]

That's actually what I'm planning to do. Hopefully, they'll let me have tonight to get a little equilibrium back, and I can go get some luff from my big sister. She may be the genius of the family, and I sometimes feel a little inferior next to her, but we're always there for each other when we need it.

Not at all. If I didn't want advice, I wouldn't have said anything on here at all.

[whogeek.livejournal.com]

By the way, I love that icon.